WHAT MAKES ME TICK
"WHAT IS IT, MY FRIEND.." AS WE SAT ALONE
ONE DEAR BROTHER ONCE ASKED,
"..THAT KEEPS YOU GOING WITHOUT MUCH SLEEP;
BOTH WORK AND SCHOOL YOUR TASK?"
I DID NOT ANSWER CORRECT, JUST THEN,
NOT HAVING MUCH TIME TO THINK.
BUT NOW I KNOW THAT IT IS THIRST,
THE SAME THAT MAKES ME DRINK.
THAT WHICH KEEPS ME COMING TO
THE DINING HALL TO EAT,
IS WHAT KEEPS ME LAYING
PROSTRATE AT HIS FEET.
I'D LIKE TO SAY IT'S LOVE FOR SOULS
AND LOVING SOULS I DO.
BUT IF THAT'S ALL THAT MADE ME GO
I WOULD SOON BE THROUGH.
I'D LIKE TO SAY IT'S LOVE FOR GOD,
AND I LOVE GOD FOR SURE;
BUT REALLY IT'S JUST KNOWING
HIS LOVE FOR ME'S SO PURE.
I'D LIKE TO SAY IT'S CHARACTER
AND LITTLE I POSSESS;
BUT NOT ENOUGH TO STAY ON TRACK
THIS I WILL CONFESS.
'TWOULD BE REAL NEAT TO BE COMPLETE,
WITH MOTIVES FULLY SOUND;
BUT I JUST DO ALL THAT I DO
TO KEEP HIS LOVE AROUND.
I GET ALONE WITH GOD AND PRAY
SOMETIME EVERY DAY;
BUT ONLY CAUSE I NEED MY FIX
TO MAKE IT ON MY WAY.
I'M AN ADDICT OF HIS LOVE
'TIS ALL I WANT IN LIFE.
SO I WILL DO ALL HE COMMANDS
NO MATTER WHAT THE STRIFE.
AN ADDICT, SLAVE, OR EVEN LEECH;
CALL IT WHAT YOU MAY;
BUT, IF DEPENDENCE BRINGS HIS LOVE,
I'LL JUST STAY THIS WAY.
I MUST KEEP INSIDE HIS LOVE
IF I'M TO SURVIVE.
MY WHOLE LIFE ON THIS DEPENDS
IT'S HOW I STAY ALIVE.
SELFISH, YES, IT DOES APPEAR.
I HOPE THAT IT'S OKAY.
FOR WITH THIS LOVE, IT IS CLEAR,
I AM HERE TO STAY.
I'D LIKE TO CLAIM AS CHARACTER
THE FORTITUDE YOU SEE;
ATTRIBUTING THE HOLY LIFE
TO SOMETHING GOOD IN ME.
BUT, I KNOW THAT WOULD BE
HALF TRUTH AT VERY BEST.
I WANT MORE OF HIS LOVE
THAT'S WHY I DO THE REST.
WHATEVER GETS MORE LOVIN'
FOR ME FROM MY LORD,
WILL DRIVE ME ON TO ALL EXTREMES,
AND SEND ME OVERBOARD.
WHAT'ER IF TAKES TO GET MY FIX,
THAT IS WHAT I'LL DO.
I KNOW IF YOU WOULD TASTE HIS LOVE
YOU'D DO THE SAME THING TOO.
GREAT SOLUTION I SEE HERE
TO MEET YOUR EVERY NEED.
'TWOULD SURELY HEAL THAT BROKEN HEART,
IF ON HIS LOVE YOU'D FEED.
NO MORE PITY PARTIES,
FOR THAT HIS LOVE RESTRAINS;
AND I MUST NEVER LIVE WITHOUT
ALL HIS LOVING RAINS.
HE IS SO KIND TO TREAT ME THUS;
ENSLAVE ME BY HIS LOVE;
SO I WILL WALK AS JESUS DID
WITH POWER FROM ABOVE.
IT MUST'VE BEEN THE ONLY WAY
TO BRING ME TO MY BEST;
TO KEEP ME ON THE NARROW WAY;
TO GIVE MY SOUL SWEET REST.
THANK YOU JESUS FOR THIS PLAN:
YOUR STRATEGY SO WISE;
TO KEEP MY SOUL HARD AFTER THEE,
TILL ON ABOVE IT FLIES.
(Written while in Bible College after
someone asked me what kept me going)
Mark Bullen